everywhere & nowhere 19
December 19/92
Esteli, Nicaragua
Adeena:
Every now and then, despite the adventure, despite the volcanoes spitting lava and ash and smoke, despite white water jungle rivers (and rivers of intriguing willing men), despite six kilometre caves dark as blindness, despite ramshackle barely running buses filled with people, farm animals, cords of mile-long sugar cane, and [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 18
“But why, for God’s sake???” my mother wanted to know, “Haven’t you heard? They’re rioting in Bombay. Why Indonesia? Why Guatemala? Why Madagascar? Why not go to Florida or Jamaica or Hawaii? Sit on the beaches. I can’t see any reason why you can’t write just as well there.”
how silly am i?
[...]
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everywhere & nowhere 17
“she lost it!”
???
Rumour had it, among my friends back at York, that I’d gone thru some kinda nervous breakdown before I left…
you always told me i was so smart
‘You will be a doctor,’ you said. Or a lawyer.
‘Sit up straight now, Gayle. What would the Queen say if she saw you [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 16
Dec 2-6/92
San Jose, Costa Rica - Matagalpa, Nicaragua
Micaleh
tapestries
weaving drunk on your words
In and out of San Josefoot traffic. Only half an eye out for a clearing. And that only half the time. Mostly my moment is fixed on the pages of your letter. In my fingers tightly. Didn’t think on waiting til [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 15
November 27, 1992
San Jose, Costa Rica - San Juan del Sur, Nicaragua
Dear Jinnean,
Began a hundred letters, a hundred different stories for my journal, an article on Costa Rica, & about a dozen almosts with variously international and variously intriguing men. Living fragments. Defying psychology and biology texts. I’m not all here. No [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 14
smoky apricots linger
like amber
haunting my stories
mocking before and after
[smile ]
& i guess i don’t do jaded
any better than i do poetry
cuz i’d rather feel your hair
against my lips
tasting its texture
than live with
scent traces
Why did I start here, in the middle of things, with me carrying around this crush? Why not start in [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 13
20/11/92
Dear Gayle:
Dearest G.
in Costa Rica
yer missive arriving this watershed week. me tossing my academic career down the institutional john. programme meeting from hell–shit stuff–me inserting many appendages in my mouth at once–enmity incurred from various manipulative faculty say la v. no?
yer exodus a model & inspiration: me realizing academe is the death [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 12
…5:00 a.m. don hiking boots and head for the hills…&
this place could be bewitched
all the people of costa rica have been turned into trees and are planted here
savvy saviour of pseudo somnambulism
single solitary, solo sanctuary
sometimes certain, seldom sorry
on the road
a woman making her way alone
hah!
Travel is solipsism, no matter how you look [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 11
I read somewhere that they are designing a computer programmed to write books. You fill in a few key words and it comes up with a narrative. Fascinating….
“Did you say William Gibson? You mean cyber punk? Your doing a PhD thesis on cyber punk?”he’s practically slavering. I’ve been sitting beside this guy [...]
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everywhere & nowhere 10
November 4/92
San Jose, Costa Rica…
no: November 8/92 San Joaquin
Dear Michael
????
For four days I have had this page with its promise of “letter” in front of me. After Michael–silence. Not that I’ve been staring at my un-letter in perplexity each of the past 96 hours. For the most part I have been studying [...]
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